Music to session by

Thought I would do a quick blog post about the music that I listen to or are reminded off on the day of a session with Mistress Lilith at Abstraktme 

 

BEFORE THE SESSION

I wake up and check twitter and Mistress Lilith’s twtter page to see if she has mentioned the session and given any instructions for the session to come.

Nervously I sign into twitter.
When I do I see her picture and it reminds me (though I have not forgotten since the last session) how incredibly pretty she is and how much I am looking forward to seeing her.
The butterflies in my tummy have already started by just looking at her photo which brings this song to mind.

DISCLAIMER
Obviously in this song and the lyrics of some of the others  I do not want to associate with the lustful words I do not feel any Romantic feelings towards Mistress Lilith nor sexual ones. I love her to bits but not in a sexual way.Some of these songs have some really apt lyrics though about powerful women and their effect.

 

CLIMBING THE STAIRS TO THE DUNGEON

So the wait is over I text that I am outside the door and I get a text back to press the buzzer.
Now I am a skeptic I believe in the scientific method nothing else. Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence. I think the following is bunkum UFO’s,Nessie,Ghosts,Gods,Numerology.Astrology,JFK conspiracy theories basically anything that does not have concrete observable verified proof I dismiss.

But I swear something happens when I walk in that door

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Firstly the roar of traffic from the busy road outside vanishes and I feel some sort of strange force and it gets stronger the more stairs I climb and get closer to the dungeon.
There is something in the air the feeling gets stronger the atmosphere seems to get thicker the higher I climb the stairs.
It crackles and sparks and fizzes there is something magical dangerous yet exciting all around you know something special is going to happen in this place.
I can’t explain it but it feels real even though I know it can’t be

 

 

WAITING OUTSIDE THE DOOR

 

I reach the top of the stairs. The walk from the stairs to the corridor seems longer than the one I have just done to get here. The door looks normal nothing special no idea that behind it a cross between Valhalla and Camelot is waiting. I’m excited but afraid to chap the door I await Mistress Lilith to open the door for me. I feel nervous and worried I am going to go into my shell and not make the session fun for Mistress Lilith.

But then Mistress Lilith slowly opens the door and is standing there smiling at me. So this piece of music (written 30 mins before the premier as Mozart was bevvied the night before and forgot to write it) is perfect the first 2 minutes the fear and neurosis I feel before the door opens then the next 2 minutes the sheer joy that seeing Mistress Lilith again brings

 

 

BEING WITH MISTRESS LILITH BEFORE THE SESSION STARTS

I go in the dungeon for one of the best parts of the session. I get to chat to Mistress Lilith while I get my outfit ready for the session. Every time I mean every time I see her I have a little heart flutter and shock as she is just so pretty. even though I think of her often when I see her again in the flesh it is like seeing her for the first time I am taken aback with how beautiful she looks. Personality wise Mistress Lilit is just as remarkable she is so positive fun and infectious a minute in her company and it rubs off and all my worries and woes are forgotten and vanish.

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You have to see her be in her presence to understand I can’t do the sheer physcal beauty and force of her personality justice it would need an author and a poet both of which I am sure you can tell I am not.It can’t be but it seems almost Supernatural the power she has just sitting there not even started the session ans she radiates and glows with strength and confidence and my legs and head turn to jelly.
This song often goes through my head I also sang a verse to Mistress Lilith last Christmas and of course murdered it as I have the voice of a rusty exhaust pipe

 

 

MISTRESS LILITH ENTERS THE ROOM TO START THE SESSION

Mistress Lilith leaves the room. I nervously dress. Even after all these sessions my hands shake so much I can not put the straps on my high heels on. As for putting the suspenders onto the stockings that is also a shambles but I somehow manage to do it.
I knock on the door to signal I am dressed and ready and nervously wait to hear the sound of Mistress Lilith’s heels in the corridor and her opening the door to start the session.

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Mistress Lilith comes in and the friendly Mistress Lilith pre session has been replaced by the ultra strict no nonsense Mistress Lilith. Still fun still with a glint of humour in her eyes but ready to dish out some severe punishment,
She rarely says a word just looks at me shakes her head then walks to the desk drawer takes out a tawse then takes a paddle from off the wall and the dreaded wooden hairbrush as well and sits down at her desk shaking her head at me in disgust.
She is a Goddess a picture of perfection dominant powerful woman of your dreams.
This is the music I hear in my head as she enters.

 

 

MAKING ME FEEL HAPPY ABOUT MYSELF FOR ONCE

I am usually scolded about my behaviour but especially about my hair and short skirt, But I feel better dressed up than I do in my ordinary clothes. As Marmy the naughty schoolgirl I know I look ridiculous but most importantly I don’t feel ridiculous and when I see myself in the mirror I for once actually like how I look.

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Normally I feel very unattractive but thanks to Mistress Lilith helping me and dressing me up I don’t feel bad about how I look. I actually feel pretty laugh if you want but I do.
This song is perfect

 

 

THE ACTUAL PUNISHMENT STARTS

Mistress Lilith varies the sessions each follows a rough pattern but I can never predict what is going to happen next. On the last occasion she seemed to be in a particular severe mood and said she was going to blister my bare bottom raw. There was no messing about I was over her knee and panties down straight to punishment on the bare no warm up. After only a few hand spanks the dreaded wooden hairbrush came into play this is really horrible is covers so much flesh and stings from the first blow and I know they are going to get harder and harder and today especially I am in for it.

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Yes I am scared but I am happy all my depressive feelings have gone even though I know serious pain is coming.Just when I think Mistress Lilith is hitting me full force she delivers an even harder blow it is something miraculous.I’m just concentrating on the moment and trying to savour ever second I can.

 

 

PUNISHMENT GETS INTENSE AND I GIVE MYSELF COMPLETELY

After the over the knee punishment is over I am already in considerable discomfort and very red and sore. Mistress Lilith has started during the sessions using a butt plug on me and they are getting bigger each session.

This is something I had never though about or tried till recently. If I am being honest it is not something I would have suggested or asked to try during a session but I am totally open to putting my full trust in Mistress Lilith and I would try out any new experience as I know she will look after me.

Basically I am hers to use and if it makes the sessions more fun for her then I am overjoyed.
Mistress Lilith seems to think I am taking the punishment too easy so a wicked wooden paddle gets taken from the wall and she does not hold back hitting me so hard that I cry out.

Then just when I think I am at my limit the cane makes an appearance.
I’m made to count out six strokes and each is harder than the last but I know this is still not as hard as Mistress Lilith can hit.
But this is exactly what I want I have given myself to be used by Mistress Lilith she has total power over me an the feeling is wonderful.
This song lyrics near the end just use me up is how I feel at this point savour every moment use me up.

 

 

SHEER BLISS AS I’M TAKING TO A NEW EXISTENCE

By the end of the punishment I am in tears I am close to having to say the dreaded safe word phrase which is very funny but uses horrible words I don’t want to say in front of Mistress Lilith. But then the Serotonin and other chemicals kick into my brain and though I can’t say for certain I think I go into sub space.

I seem to absorb the pain and I feel nothing but deep joy and satisfaction almost an out of body experience as if I am flying and looking down from the ceiling at Mistress Lilith and myself. It really is an extraordinary experience and one I have never felt at anytime in the real world.
This is what I hear in my head as I drift into bliss

 

 

JOURNEY HOME STILL ON A HIGH AND ONE PERSON ON MY MIND STILL

The session is over I get dressed back into my civvies and await Mistress Lilith. She again is a delight to talk with outwith the session and this part like the pre session chat is something that I love just as much as the session.
I feel an enormous sense of well being and feel so lucky to have spent time is this wondrous persons company.

I get a hug at the door from Mistress Lilith which is actually if I’m honest the highlight of the day and I leave the dungeon.
I think about Mistress Lilith as I travel home not in a creepy way but in a platonic friendship way.
I wonder what she is doing and imagine her life full of fun light happiness and rainbows.
I hope it is I want her to be happy I’m sure she is.
I think of her in this song

 

 

So anyone who has read this far I hope you like my musical journey through a session and the music was not to horrible to listen to.